The closest I've come to pulling an all-nighter was actually my own birthday party last year. Let me tell you, lying on my own bedroom floor at 6am and seeing daylight through my curtains before I've even had any sleep was one of the strangest sensations I think I've ever had. I remember distinctly one of the first thoughts that came into my head was "It's morning. There are probably so many people getting up for work right now," And then I imagine I passed out. A few hours of Gintama and YouTube will do that to you though... I had no regrets. And I'd probably do it again if I'm being really honest.
But, coming back to the present, Easter just happened and I have surprised myself with the significant lack of junk I've eaten so far. Usually after Lent any chocolate or crisps that are brought into the house don't last very long but for some reason this year they just don't appeal to me as much. Fizzy drinks on the other hand are a different story altogether. Those I've been enjoying very much for some reason. There's probably more sugar in them than anything else I was off for Lent which doesn't make me feel so good about it, but... eh. Thoughts like that don't get between me and a can of ginger beer. The Easter holidays are so unhealthy though. Like... I feel as though Easter has turned into one big excuse to just binge eat. It feels like a holiday dedicated to chocolate eggs more than anything else. When the Easter bunny came to my door this year he brought chocolate eggs, nausea, sleep deprivation and a whole load of poor life choices. He also brought Batman V Superman pajamas but I'm not complaining about that one. Two weeks off school doesn't hurt things either, but when you've got 7 seasons of Modern Family available at the click of a button it dips back into being unhealthy again. I hate myself just a little after seeing how many episodes I manage to watch in one day, but it's just so easy to do. I tell myself each holiday that I'll do things differently, I'll be productive, maybe study or exercise. But some things never change and I usually remember how lazy I am and laugh about how much I overestimated myself, again.
One thing I am trying to change though is the clutter on my laptop. Most of it is fine, but there's just this one folder... The folder of hell. I've been thoughtlessly dumping photographs into it for the past few years, it even survived the transfer from my old laptop to my current one which was surprising. Most of the photos I take on my phone end up dumped there and forgotten about. And now it's haunting me. Every time I open the folder it takes quite a while to load everything and by that time I've already forgotten what I was even looking for. It eats away at me a little every time I so much as look at it and I've finally started organising it into sub folders and categories and I feel like I'm cleansing my very soul. Every cluster of photos that gets rehoused is a little weight shifted off my mind. I'm still nowhere near getting that done, but I feel I've made a good start. I should probably get back to it soon...
I was initially going to write this about motivation (or my lack thereof), but not surprisingly I didn't have enough motivation to write more than a paragraph before giving up and deciding to come back to it at a later stage. I'm glad I did, I reread that paragraph before starting tonight and it was quite... Dry. My motivation is starting to dwindle, so I think I'll just leave you with this;
You're welcome.